Foiled again.

Rosemary

Short version: no biopsy after all.

They had me in exactly the same position in the MRI as I was for the attempt at needle localization on Friday.   And I was fine for a while, exactly as before.  And then, exactly the same thing happened: pain, then dizziness, faintness, sweats, blood pressure drop — otherwise known as a vasovagal response. They had to call a halt to everything and pull me out — AGAIN.

All this despite having intravenous drugs this time: one to calm me down, and another to block pain, and another to stop nausea (that’s Versed, Fentanyl, and Zofran).   I was awake, but just sort of happily drifting along in my thoughts, except for when the nurse in charge of the meds spoke to me to check on my state.  Then, rather suddenly, I wasn’t feeling so hot, I had a bad cramp in one arm, and the whole thing went south fast.

I am SO frustrated!

So I’ll be talking to my surgeon and oncologist tomorrow, and we’ll decide what to do next.   I figure they’ll just have to knock me completely out to get this done.   Or at least do the sort of “twilight sleep” they did when I had carpal tunnel release surgery, and when they installed my chemo port.

So very, VERY frustrated.

I want this over and done, so I can get the right surgery, and put it all behind me!

Dammit.

More later.


7 Responses to “Foiled again.”

  • Greer Gilman Says:

    Damn! How utterly frustrating. I so hope they can get this sorted NOW, and get you straight into surgery. Wishing you a swift and flawless recovery.

  • Yves Meynard Says:

    Highly frustrating indeed. Sometimes it does seem as though intelligent Fates are conspiring against us just for the pleasure of watching us squirm. If our lives are TV shows for the gods, why can’t they be a sitcom instead of a cheesy soap opera? Best wishes as always.

  • Sandie Says:

    Grrrr! Not sure how much energy you have today so I shall stomp around and kick things on your behalf. You can sit comfortably and mutter about how unfair it all is.

    Sending gentle hugs and hope your doctors have a workable solution tomorrow.

  • Lisa Says:

    Sorry to read that you have to wait. Wishing you speedy treatment and progress.

  • Victoria McManus Says:

    That’s so frustrating!

  • Nonesuch Says:

    Argh. I can attest from experience to the idea of the body having its own separate mind, and deciding that it wants to be anxious even when the brain is telling it to chill. I agree wholeheartedly with the strategy of slipping it a mickey!